What’s Guiding You?
Let your conscience be your guide. If your conscience is not your guide what is? I am learning that following your conscience will save a life time of pain.
Evolution and Emancipation
"Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced." ~James Baldwin
As I was reflecting this morning I realized that until I face some things in my life, I will be stagnant. I don’t mean stagnant professionally, but I mean emotionally stagnant and vulnerable to things that mean me no good. Many people look at my shell and see my exterior and think that I have it together, but I am far from that. In fact, I have been thinking about the evolution and emancipation of me, which will not take place unless I face some things. (more…)
Issues…
Oh boy I don’t know where to start…My weekend was quite eventful. I have several scenarios for this post.. (more…)
Emotionally Conflicted
I have been trying to get myself together emotionally. I must admit that it is coming along pretty well. Although it seems as if the harder I try, the harder it is for me to get over Virgo. I am pushing to allow myself to heal without bringing another man into the picture. However, I am tempted. What I usually do is go from the ex one to the next one with next one helping me to get over the ex one. (more…)
From the Mouths of Babes
My four year old daughter and I were talking the other day and she posed a question to me that was really out of this world. She asked me "what is life"? I was at a loss for words. (more…)
On the Down Low….
Now my friends often tease me because I can go anywhere and talk to anyone. Ms. "C" often tells me that I meet no strangers. In the past I questioned why I am like this and many people around me seem to frown on it. Anyhow, this weekend this characteristic really saved me. (more…)
TGIF….It’s the Weekend…Finally!!
I am so REAL glad that today is Friday. I am really looking forward to my weekend. I am going to live it up. Tonight I am going to spend some time with my four year old. I think that I am going to take her to the movies and Red Lobster or Mary Mac’s. I have been promising her for the last week that we would go. I know if I don’t get out this weekend it will be a long time before I will be able to go out again because I started a new Doctoral class and the work is staked up.
Also, I can’t forget Saturday………My friend is having a 30th birthday party on Saturday night and I WILL be in attendance. I don’t know what I will wear to the party but I was so happy last night as I was trying on my clothes from last summer. I can actually still wear them. I was a little self conscience because I thought I had gained some weight but it doesn’t look bad. So…… I have summer clothes and it’s all good because I don’t have to buy any…I have the luxury of buying clothes this summer because I want to….. and I have something nice to wear to the party. You can’t get any better than that. I am grateful and excited….and I look forward to a great weekend of enjoying life and the folks around me.
Life is short…I’m Grateful
On Yesterday another person from my old neighborhood died. I had not seen him in about nine years but to know that he was so young…26 to be exact really did something to me. My heart aches for his parents. He was the only child and I cannot imagine the hurt that his parents are experiencing. My prayers are definetly with them.
The sting of his death has prompted me to reflect and realize that tommorow is not promised. I am so, so, grateful. As I stepped out of bed this morning I could not help but to fall to my knees with tears of joy, thanksgiving, humility, and repenteance. It’s something about the sting of death that brings about a true appreciation of life. This day I am making a committment to my God, my children, my self, and all others around me to be a better mother, friend, teacher,…a better person overall.
I am thankful for everyone and everthing around me. Today is the first day in a long time that I have felt a sense of peace, understanding, and a knowing that everything is going to be alright.
6 Questions
Last night I sat up and pondered on many things. I posed several questions to myself. Many of these questions were brought to fruition through the conversations I had with friends over this past weekend. I try to learn from the mistakes of the people around me so when ever they need a listening ear, I give it. By giving it, I learn with them from their situations.
Now what’s unique about these situations is I don’t have a man. In fact, I am the only one of my friends that doesn’t have a man. (more…)
The Vent…Confessions of this Profession
For the last year or so I have been wrestling with why I continue to subject myself to this profession called education. As I look around and reflect on my experiences in this arena I find that I am sick of the bullshit and bureaucracy that accompanies my role as a classroom teacher. I must admit that this year I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I feel like leaving them fake ass folk and them bad ass kids up in that school building and not lookin back. (more…)
