I am really feelin’ this
I am really feeling my new job. I like it here. I feel like a new person. My children are doing well and I only have one paper left to have completed one full year of schooling towards my Doctoral degree. I finally feel as if I am making some progress in my life. If it were not for me stepping out on faith I probably would not have left my old environment (my job) and I would have again experienced misery for another 190 days…..which is an entire school year. I am grateful for this experience. I have realized that there are some folk out there that do have goals and ambitions. I must admit that I realize that I was so overly exposed to negativity that I had developed a negative perspective on life….on black folk…my people. I was so fucked up until I felt as if the niggamentaliy was the norm for black kids…I was sadden, depressed and sick…..and I mean literally sick at the slothful, unconcerned, complacent, feeling as if the world owes them something, students that I had been dealing with for the last four years. I had lost my drive and ambition for teaching. I had began to look at myself as a glorified babysitter. Well, needless to say I felt as if I were going to have a headache I was going to have one around the corner from my house…and that was my attitude, so I began to work at a school that is about 11 miles from my house as opposed to 40. I started the school year expecting things to be very similar to my old situation. To my surprise, it is not. I know that it is only the third going into the fourth day of school, but I have noticed that the vibe of the school is awesome. The students may not be the brightest porch lights on the block but the difference in this group and my past groups is that these students want to learn…they want to be helped. They listen; they understand the power of knowledge as well as following rules. Don’t get me wrong. I love all of my past students but this new group has really helped me to regain the zeal that I once had for teaching.
I’m glad that you found your reason for teaching again! I know you have been busy! Keep up the good work and make it fun for them too if at all possible.
Comment by Choas — August 16, 2006 @ 5:05 pm
GET YO HAND OUTTA MY POCKET!!!!!!! I JUST BLOGGED ABOUT THE SAME TOPIC!!!!!!! We spend too much time together, I swear…
PS They’re taking NAVAN outta production so my short-lived alcoholism has come to an end…
Comment by Beloved — August 17, 2006 @ 2:40 am
PPS I didn’t see the end result of your highlights. I can’t wait for this weekend…
Comment by Beloved — August 17, 2006 @ 2:43 am
Change your modes of thought, and the changed conditions will follow.
Comment by LONELY HEART — August 20, 2006 @ 5:30 pm
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Comment by Blogsome Bay Homeowners Association — August 26, 2006 @ 11:04 pm
I’m ecstatic that you have a newfound desire for teaching. You have always shown genuine concern for our students regardless of their backgrounds. Even though I MISS YOU I’m really happy for you. I have no one to call on the black phone. LOL!!!!
I have to let you know that at first I was really mad/sad with you. I didn’t want you to leave me. I thought about how selfish I was being and realized that our friendship was much bigger and stronger than that. Alright, that’s enough because I have tears in my eyes. Your sensitivity has really rubbed off on me.
Comment by Unadulterated — September 20, 2006 @ 11:27 pm